OLM and resignation

 10 57 pm

i will cut to the chase

1. for sometime it's been bothering me, when OLM offered me the position as their 2D animation production coordinator assistant i was very puzzled.  My Japanese is terrible, i never done this type of job before and i was still accepted. don't get me wrong, i am so gratefull they offered my the opportunity. But i tell you the truth i don't think i am fit for this position.

2. I know it could not come at a worse time but, please, i need to be convinced to stay, i don't have kids and my mother is still alive, unless it was the exact opposite scenario i wouldn't even think about resigning.

3. I need to study this week for japanese, i am really falling behind in studies.

4. I need to consider the future, about whether i should remain in animation or leave it behind for good.

OLM, Japanese

 10 39 pm

i will cut to the chase.

1. Michelle just told me off before i left work in the nicest way, i guess it means i am really in deep trouble.

2. got into class like almost 8 pm.

3. it's been more than a week since i started in OLM, talk about fast.

4. i will sleep earlier tonight

Astro and headache

9 : 00 am

here's some quick updates

1. any company wants me to follow their style, but here is the real headache, both expect me to have some quick skils in their tools, flystudio screw me over for not mastering Nuke, and Astro post production screw me over for not having a basic in after effects.
2. replied to theresa that i will treat her to bubble tea, not surprised if she says no

OLM and something different

 7 46 am

morning, so i will cut the long story short as usual. 

1. it's been 4 days since OLM first day, and 4 days passed by that fast. i can't say much as except i kept doign what i was doing. I met and spoke with Kiyoumi Agemura, and most recently Shogo san who is probably one of the japanese animators there.

2. mom is thinking i should get a new samsung instead of the iphone  that i have now which is eating alot of battery power.

3. my touch N Go card ran from 145 down to 100 in less than a week just parking at CBD 2 cyberjaya T__T. talk about eating up money. i had to pump 400 credits in there.

4. anyway i will continue japanese studies today.

5. maybe i should revise my own quotes to "Time flies like the river".

i think i should just use this week to study, furthermore rest as well. I hope i can cover enough lessons in time to prepare for next wednesday class.

2020 and something i never expected

 12 28 am

i have not blogged in a long time so i thought i would mention something after taking forever. here are some updates.

1. i am not with Astro anymore, i felt that things were seriously not working out over there, so for the sake of my life and health i had to terminate that vendorship. i hwas fighting with myself for months about what to do and decision i had to make, at last i have to make the same old decision like i did in the past.

2. i am still studying japanese, currently in advance 11, some newly arrived sensei from japan, i swear they keep giving the fresh new ones.

3. i have not been doing much since the pandemic started.mostly at home, but now i am out and trying to be productive, i try to make the full use of it.

4. I had an interview, an offer from OLM Asia and then first day with them. supervisor well was a different story altogether. i just wonder what made them offer me the job. 3 months probation, maybe an extend but i don't expect anything. it's possible i will be removed even before the probation is over.

5. look i know that my pissed off angry personality was triggered yesterday and i barely held him off, 5 months passed my be in astro in the blink of an eye just like flystudio and i never expected to stay either way. I can't believe i actually lasted the day in cyberjaya, last time was 2 weeks only, how long will i do this time? between early termination and being productive.

6. not i can't sleep son of a bitch. i won't tell mom anything because i know that in my life, nothing is ever final

i prefer to write in summary these days because i am really too lazy to write in full, i will sum it all but just saying a few predictions. i don't know my future and it's not predictable unless i made a choice somewhere. i hope by all means that i at least do consider my own choices