new interns, one wisdom tooth gone, september

 2 17 pm

some updates

1. more new interns arrived at nimbus, one of them, actually 2 of them i helped before when their senior wasnt around. i was told by chanelle that another intern will arrive and that intern is a programmer. I am also speaking to chanelle alot more than i should, normally no artist would speak directly with one of the designers in the game.

2. just took away my wisdom tooth this morning, i am scheduled for the next surgery in october. it took around 45- 50 minutes to extract my tooth, i got week after that because i lost maybe some blood, then after i ate, took antibiotics, pain killers, drank lots of water, for some weird reason, i restored more than half my energy, i hope i can stay this way until monday.

3. i send my works to midaz orion, dont know if they will ever reply to me. i will apply to more positions also just in case.

more new interns

 10 44 am

some updates

1. new interns arrive, they are from taylors and clazroom, mostly are 3D now an entire table filled with 3D artist is full.

2. i completed my first asset now i am doing my second asset in calamity, the good news is i am still working directly with abu and wei how, and i dont have to take leadership responsibility at all.

3. i decided i will keep applying to positions in future, thats all i can do now.

new interns

 5 05 am

some updates

1.  there were new interns lately, all 6 of them, mixed of genders, ethnicity and schools, now i am no longer the newest intern and that is dreadfull, but hey you know the system they came out with? all new interns have at least 1 person each supervising instead of being under 1 main lead. as for me, im supposed to complete some scratches for the table legs before checking in with sofea for the last time, and getting final approval. abu also requested that i spend time talking to interns when they are all work from home.

2. i received a response from immortals only after applying on linkedin, and that assholes only replied to me properly after several months, fucking assholes.

3. i only just learn that shou yee is no longer working at the office, after i noticed the shutter at the office is closed most days, i need ti figure out about returning to the family bussiness.

Nimbus Games

 4 54 am

updates

1.  its been more than 2 weeks since i started my internship at Nimbus games and to be frank, it's not really looking good at all, i get asked alot of ridiculous questions and the worse part is that i been asked why i applied there.  i don't know how long i will last at nimbus games, because i am not getting paid or receiving my travel allowance at all. so my only option is keep job searching and keep applying and hopefully something turns up.

2.  met one of the lead artist abu yesterday and had a conversation, i received assistance from abu and well lets just say that abu came in to rescue.

3. met some chick from cool cats cafe by the name of wei wei, she seems cute and asked for my name.

i lost the position

 6 18 pm

some updates

1. the bad news is i responded too late to equator college and lost the position for 3D animation lecturer, but i dont blame them, they desperately need a lecturer and cannot wait for me because their intake starts in september and i am only available after december.

2. i survived my first week at nimbus games for internship, i wonder if i will even make it until december. will just see how things go, secondly wai san, who is another intern(darn she's cute) recommends if i take the train and use monorail from masjid jamek to titiwangsa, i save alot more money on parking, petrol, car maintenance and even servicing, as matter of fact i save myself the trouble of forcing myself to stay awake through the whole time driving and fighting traffic.

3. i will continue applying to positions.

Nimbus Games

 11 18 pm

some updates

1. completed my first week at Nimbus Games, can't believe i lasted 8 days at moment. i have a onboarding asset to work on and complete and i only did a quick UV unwrap and bake test at moment, i still have proper UV unwrap to do and texturing to work on.

2. i will be applying for roles at bonfire and other game companies that have vacancies.

3. i will see if Celine is at Sugar and I tomorrow.

Nimbus Games

 4 38 pm

some updates

1. it's been 3 days since i started my internship at Nimbus Games, i told the interns it's my first ever internship, but to be frank it's third time for me. i don't know how long i will last, but i am just trying to get by thats all. i noticed someone in their discord is very direct with words and doesn't hesitate to tell anyone off, and that piece of shit was a junior artist, with egoistic personality. I was told that they will move office to subang jaya next month, but they are still unsure yet, so i had to check in just in case to avoid future issues like driving to sentul in the near future.

2. i will continue applying to positions, thats all i can do.

3. the station maybe delayed for the moment, how long? i don't know but what i can do is maybe prepare the props for texturing in substance painter.

internship start soon

 11 34 am

some updates

1. the internship starts tomorrow, 9 am until 6 pm, its not paid so i will not stay anymore than 6 pm even if they insist, the office location is all the way in the city and traffic seems bad enough when it's weekday. i also hope i can at least borrow equipment to do internship.

2. larian and double eleven rejected me, i have a feeling it's filter rejection. bloody hell i hate when these companies do things like that.

3. i will continue applying to companies because, im not sure how long i will last after this internship because i am not even making a single $$$, who knows i probably end up in depth in december.

interview update

 8 23 pm

some updates

1. interview with blitz multimedia is done and over it, turns out that nothing will happen after all and i just went there for interview thats it.

2. ah kok foo has finished surgery and is slowly on the road to recovery. me and mom will pay ah kok foo in the hospital a visit sometime.

3. i applied to several more positions and will probably never get any response, or interviews for this year

4. i decided i will risk it and send the message to joseph teng tonight, no reply will probably mean the internship will never happen and im back to where i started.

5. fucking IGDA

interview

 10 pm

some updates

1. i am interviewing with bernard tomorrow from blitz multimedia sdn bhd at his office in bukit jalil at 11 am tomorrow, i am leaving at 9 30 am and hopefully i can find parking there, i will interview with him tomorrow and thank him for taking the time to interview me despite he wont hire me.

2. i filled in the onboarding for nimbus games already but im not sure to expect anything therefore, im going to search more vacancies just in case even if i have to take administration vacancy to pay bills.

3. i made very little progress on the station, now i am texturing the reactor but it's moving too slow, i wil try and complete the reactor either by July or august.

4. the fucking IGDA rejected my application for Larian Studios Game development hangout, stupid fuckers.

5. not sure what more will happen but kok foo will have heart surgery tomorrow.

July 2026

 5 42 am

some updates

1. kok foo had a heart attack, but he is stable at moment, he is currently warded at serdang hospital, which is a goverment hospital.

2. i recently had job interviews with several companies, one of them is virtuos for level artist, and i got internship offer with nimbus games, i wonder if i will ever get a reply from nimbus games or i should just respond with the offer letter and my IC.

3. so i made little progress on the station making materials and textures, now i am at the texturing stage and hopefully can get stasis done in July, i also hope i can get reactor done in July as well, i am behind schedule.

4. I am scheduled next week for an interview with bliz multimedia sdn bhd with bernard at 10 am, so i will be driving there next monday, need to pump petrol and check the car tyre pressure as well.

5. i saw celine foh again and sugar and I, i will keep talking to her more.

6. end of July i will be attending a game dev meetup.

CNY 2026

10 32 am

some updates

1. well, this year ins't much but i will mention it anyway, there was no interview in january except some stupid phone call, then there was no interview for febuary, i doubt there will be any interview, despite applying for positions. i am not sure if there will be interviews for this year.

2. i finally reached the materials and texturing stage for the station, and i will be making the textures in stages, i would like to rush but if i rush, everything will just be messy, so i decided that i will texture modulars that are priority first.

3. celine wished me happy new year, not something i expected from her but i will talk to her more this year, i hope she stays so i can talk to her more.

4. i will stay focus and determine to get interview and position, thats all i can do on my side, to lessen moms burden.

22nd Jan 2026

 7 54 pm

some updates

1. it's been a few weeks since 2026 started and i have not got any interview yet, i was mostly ignored and then treated like shit. according to mom, she will be asked to leave selset soon and i have no idea what is happening, i think in future i might have to return to the family bussiness.

2. the station really have little progress, i am sorry to myself i am really trying my best here to make progress with little resources and knowledge, it takes many years to make this game i made for myself but it's taken more time than expected. my blueprint knowledge is very little, i am only at beginner level and i focus mostly on modular assets that i model since 2023 until now. its taken so long because i am making everything, from prototype, GDD, first playable, textures, UV, light, materials, decal, everything until n ow. I wish i can push faster but this is the fastest i can do. i have updated JIRA on the timeline schedule and of course trello on progress, even more. i even arranged the schedule on what needs to be done in certain time based on knowledge and whether it's possible to achieve or not without expecting anything.

3. Celine is graduating this year and i wished her congratulations was the most i can do, i have not spoken to her more yet, but i want to try.

4. i applied to several positions also and got rejected, what happens this year i really don't know. i can at least try to secure a position in some game company and at least pass probation before deciding to leave this industry as artist permanently.

5. the roof has been changed already, so currently even with rains or heavy rains, there is no leaking yet, need to check with ah long about painting over the watermarks soon.

2026

 12 15

some updates

1. it's 2026, i should be positive but honestly i am not, not with how things are at moment. everything is kept inside my head at moment.

2. finally all modular assets including props, set and dressing are done for the station, i just need to collect the modulars with remaining UV's, and have them placed in the engine, then start thinking about materials and textures.

3. i will be sending new artworks to limbheim soon to review, whatever they choose is up to them.

09.12.2025

 8 53 pm

some updates

1. mock teaching is over, i figured nothing will happen from here already since some students actually dislike the content haha.

2. was contacted from a unreal engine game designer position and then got ignored.

3. i am thinking i should contact shirene from at event quest on this thursday with questions.

I am guessing thats all the interview for the months already, meanwhile i will continue working on the materials and textures just for the bin, just one modular at the moment then i will continue to work and finish the modular for exit to contamination and research display.

december 2025

 1 29 am

some updates

1. interview with at event quest sdn bhd at 12 pm today, but if it's raining i would be late. depends

2. received message from talent searcher that represents a game company, all they did was ask for my resume.

3. house roof is getting changed and repaird soon.

27th november

 1 33 pm

some updates

1. infinite minds academy decided to invite me for mockup teaching on 08.12.2025 at 11 am, but i might be going earlier because i am worried about heavy rain.

2. had the sunday gathering last week with sashimi, damn, she is leaving for good.

3. was supposed to be interviewed by at event quest, and now they cannot be bothered to even reply? stupid dumb company person.

4. sculpting is done for the bench, now i am decimating everything before i start exporting, renaming and then test bake.

november 2025

 10 03 am

some updates

1. uv unwraps for the station are all finished for the most important modular assets, there are more smaller assets to model and finish but i will focus on the important assets at moment. now i am sculpting on the high poly for the interchange bench because i finished sculpting for medical bed. progress a little bit slow but hopefully i can finish all sculpting next week and start the baking.

2. was interviewed by infinite academy recently for the position of 3d animation trainer, the school seems to focus on children with special need and i have no idea what i was doing there except to use as excuse to do something. but they mentioned mock teaching during interview so i thought i would prepare some slides. i installed maya 2022 in my laptop for just in case they dont have a PC available for me. and i just learned they want to give me a mockup teaching on 2nd december which is 2 weeks from now. i am still deciding if i can do it or not.

3.  getting ready to see sashimi again this weekend, i need to put money aside for the food gathering and then pump petrol and top up my touch and go card for sunday afternoon. i maybe fall asleep there or go back earlier if i am very sleepy.

4. maybe i also need to top up credit for my touch and go e wallet soon.

updates november

 9 13 am

some updates

1. this one would be faster, the stations UV unwrap for the most important parts are all completed, except exit to contamination and research center visitation, which i will decide later how to complete, other than that All UV's have been unwrapped and the following is start sculpting the high poly for medical bed, blanket, pillow and interchange bench. thats the current plan.

2. mom is sick, vommit, leg pain, back pain and she cannot even eat the smallest meal, tomorrow auntie chris is bringing mom to clinic. i am not sure if i can even go because of my current sleep schedule. most probably auntie chris will be brining mom instead. how long mom will be sick, i have no idea.

3. nimbus games is the only game company that doesn't mind offering internship or any kind of position to me, despite how messy things are. i am taking a risk here by simply taking this decision, i was inform will not receive allowance except for travel allowance and the distance to their office is really far, chances are after i inform i added him there won't be any reply. cannot complain lah, all i know is, everything have risk, even decision making.

4. yes, game industry is shit now. i don't know know what to mention, all i can inform is it's november and i still have no basic income, i only had a recent interview and it was a failed interview.

October, LevelupKL 2025

 9 45 am

here is some update

1. i went to levelupkl, but this year isn't much. there weren't alot of companies appearing, if they were mostly is to discuss for casual meetup but not recruit. some even open a booth there and place their own staff and not even recruiting at all. kind of like you are going there to waist time. i also received message from gamers hideout recently to fill up the employment application forms, i will send it back by today.

2. so i have not been making much progress for the research lab modular uv's, i hope to complete it at least by october or at least by this year, because by next year, i am going to start on materials and textures, there won't be anymore UV unwrapping, except for just adding 2 new modulars if neccesary. now i am testing out some trimsheets in substance painter that i can use for the future for some modulars.

3. i also received my new debit card from maybank, is interesting, i am supposed to clear the savings for maybank and then move the last money to RHB but for some reason i am renewing it for emergency purpose.

4. luciana just received kiwi citizenship this year.