updates

11 pm

it's so far whats going on in my life.

1. 4 months and counting in backbone entertaiment, 2 warnings and a missunderstanding.

2. 2moro exam at ICLS.

3. i'm so tired i want to rest.

doing something similar in the past

6 25 pm

it's saturday and I'm going to type out my feelings off the whole day

1.took an emergency leave on friday, i needed time to be myself again and retreat.

2. im trying to find myself again, but still feel locked somewhere, i hoping the weekend will fix it.

3. I have a similar feeling in taman desa back in 2008, i feel that working around the area is just bad luck.

4. my japanese exam in on 14 on febuary.

thats all for nowa

whats next

2 19 pm

it's almost going to be end of January and I going to update on next situation,

1. I finally have my first car at age of 30 years old. but i never asked for it,

2. i'm stressed at backbone entertaiment, working on alot of character animation and i thinking of not staying even after probation.

3. I'm deciding to leave the animation industry after starting a life as student and career for almost 8 years, I feel I am loosing my interest and planning to leave for good but keeping it as a hobby.

4. I might consider working at mom's office because i thinking of helping the family bussiness. after all this years.

5. I'm going to regret saying I don't have the money to pay the bank loan for my first car.

6. i'm thinking going to meet deborah lim before some other dude snatch her.

7. getting to know abuku sensei better.

dunno if gettting all this out of my head can fix anything but, it's just matter of time until i make my final decision, actually i already made my decision, now it's about other options i got. i feel dumb sometimes repeating the past but anyway, my thoughts are now out and i want to think about something else.

Chi chi

11 04 pm

it's almost end of the year and here is latest updates

1. I taking and off day on 31st dec.

2. Chi chi series is continue and i'm assigned to work on ep 06, currently modeling small props for the series.

3. I'm thinking when I can meet deborah at a suitable time

4. i'm starting to doubt myself when i was doing textures among new staff in backbone, for the 1st time I realised I was slower than them.

5. going to remake that old piece animation of mine when I first started using maya.

so far

9 33 pm

its almost end of the year and probably i can recap whats happened in 2014.

1. I was asked to leave Gancho studio all because The so called Creative Director and Managing Director had somethin agains't me, also a backstabber over there. but i'm glad i left

2. i was on holliday for over 6 months until I was employed by backbone, currently more than 2 months here and still around..

3. I lost a tham family relative this year.

4. My older cousin sister from tham family got married this year.

5. one of my friends from lifeway is returning to auckland.

6. almost all my high school friends are getting married

7. mom wants to buy a new car to replace the camry

i'm thinking applying for year end leave to renew my passport so that when need to go to Japan no need to wait for suitable time

backbone and japanese

4 18 pm

it's been awhile i did not update my post so i will share whats happening.

1. it's been 2 months in backbone and I'm involved with chi chi animation series.

2. japanese classes have been going well so far, it feels good to be back here and learning again because i am far behind from where i used to stand, fell from Advance 1 to Intermediate 2.

3. thinking to take leave around december renew my passport to make a trip to japan next year

4. been called to a meeting with everyone else in backbone but didn't hear anything about myself yet. 

a month & 1.5 in backbone

9 48 pm

i't s evening time and here I am typing after some time away so here goes, so far it's been more than a month in backbone, plus another half a month i have been here, 1 artist have left since i started and became a replacement, another artist joined but i learned he will only start at the next episode, so much for xtra help.

the thing is i don't expect to make it after my probation because my time at moment doesn't look any better.I getting to learn about shi rong(animation director) and yoon jung(producer) and how they think so I can work with them better.

I'm also thinking after this I might work at the office because I tired of job searching and applying, it's getting me fedup and and tired and kind of pointless at some point

i'm thinking of going for drum lessons someday