Post CNY

12 11 pm

okay, so i try to sound as optimistic as i can in this shitty life of mine.

1. did a few interviews so far and none of them so to last.

2. started my class again and realised that i really fell behind.

3. got another interview next week.

4. i don't know if mom is even serious about japan at all. if she is lying then i just have to go on my own.

5. what happens next? i really don't know.

life so far in 2016

2 am

okay so some updates.

1. had 2 recent interviews, 1 with Glue Studios and 1 with silver ant, finalyl after so many years managed to get interview at that stupid company. i will 1 have 1 last interview with them next thursday.

2. I hate my life, seriously, failed for lecturer for time, cant keep myself past probation and furthermore treated like shit by people.

3. finally going to japan.

4. some really good announcement, sector 2 which was a personal short animation i created in 2005, i actually remaking it with more details this time. i took months away form the project to focus on my job as a lecturer only to be let go 3 months later.i am going to display some stuff.

so the photos above show rough planning schedule for sector 2, jobs that i successfully completed and plans that i made for next production stage.

above are snapshots samples of the env for sector 2, revised with add on buildings and details, i'm modeling everything single handed therefore the uv unwrap and textures will take longer time as well. i just hope i can at least make enough progress.

a shitty year

12 16 am

here is what i have to say

I seriously had a very shitty year, so don't email to fk me over and tell me to grow up or get some counselling because nobody have any right to tell me that. i have been fked over many times and what i'm about to say does not make me feel any better.

1. nobody likes to be let go at the end of the year, nobody i know that feeling some ppl can accept it and are still happy but not me.

2. i don't like it when people decide to tell me i'm horrible at something and i'm horrible at it forever because people are seriously idiots if they ever say such things to people.

3. i'm going to lose money again but that is expected because i'm going overseas.

4. i want to be happy but unfortunately i will not celebrate the new years, there have been many thigns which are unfortunate last year and i caanot accept being happy at this moment.

5. to all my enemies out there, you might be laughing at me now, and want to fk me over so, i dare you to come right in front of me and try it, i promise that you guys are all foolish enough without thinking with your brain it will be yr last day alive, I'm not worried about going to jail.

6. i told myself once before that if there is one thing i always wanted to do that was to enjoy life the the fullest, i decided instead I want to live without any regrets.

christmas eve

6 pm

well it's the eve of christmas and i have some fucked up news.

1. not a way to begin the new year but clazroom decided to fire me and not keep me as fulltime lecturer.

2. i have decided to go for my japan holliday for 1 week.

3. I also am going to send my new reel to huhu studios and the one academy for modeller and lecturer positions.

4. nothing else.

clazroom

4 40 pm

okay it's been awhile since i last posted, but i'm going to cut it short.

1. it's been more than a month in clazroom and i'm not sure how things will progress

2. having difficulty sleeping again.

3. tired as usual.

clazroom

11 pm

it's been almost a month since i started to lecture at clazroom but i will make some real fast updates.

1. i am part of a 3 subjects, getting to know some of the students as well.

2. I planning to asking deborah out again for the last time.

3. going to buy more yen sometime in early january if not december.

4. got a job to do from 2D course, to model some detailed robot for them.

that's it.

Clazzroom Academy of Media Art

9 35 pm

so here is some updates

1. i decided to give that lecturer position a try, no matter what the outcome is.

2. had to stop at selset for temporary but still return to help on weekends.

3. have to get used to this idea of teaching.

4. my trip to japan is still on jsut need to plan ahead of when i am going and to buy the air ticket.

further updates later