Sunday, August 16, 2009

16/08/09

right, today, well since yesterday I had my feelings bleeding out and screaming at me till now and I'm trying to control them now I figure it's best to let it all out.


about 3 years ago, I met her, I kept thinking she's the right person to meet and probably to make as a girlfriend, I build the friendship with her and her family to know her better. but I could not bring myself to propose a relationship to her. I don't know why, I tried each time we met but it just cannot happen.


today I learn she's in relationship with a guy I also know who probably forget me. no argument, I know him and I know her, most of all I know her dreams and goals. I thought by rejoining amway and finding out who her romeo is that she told me I never met before I could rebuild the relationship.


I know now that I might be wrong, yin yin might have found her lifelong partner, it's what she wants, just too bad I didn't propose earlier. but there's some part of me for some reason refusing to let go, it's that emotional detach that is hard to fight, I would normally fight to get what I want but this isn't about getting the person I like, I believe now this is about her being happy. I would have interfered but I know Ken Loh, he's a good guy and I think yin yin deserves to be happy, both of them deserve to be happy. god I feel like I'm feeling sory for myself here. I feel I have to write this out because it's been bothering me since yesterday and this is about the girl I would propose relationship to but I did not make a decision.

yin yin I won't break your happiness and I will not ruin my friendship with ken, if you like him then please be happy together, I won't forgive if you don't.

most of all, please as a friend do not invite me to your wedding day, I can't stand the tormented feelings I have to go through.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

09/08/09

今晩は!

 今日ははまなので少し時間がBLOGGUを書きます。それが何をかいたがっています?分からない。

 私のプレゼン手シオンはおわったら自分のまんが゙をつくります。そしてもっと日本語は勉強したり図をかいたりゆうっくりやすんだりと思っています。2010早くはじめますそして私の勉強はもう一年でおわって。時間が早くつつめます。


 日本がべんきょうはわだやめません。今は少し時間があるので。ICLSで日本語べんようはつずけると思っています。もとこんどの12月にJLPT3試験はじめます、私はせたいいきたがっています!

Friday, August 7, 2009

07/08/09

it's year 2009, 4 months to year 2010 and it's been so many months I didn't write anything so this is for updates.

1. I'm finishing the last of my 2nd year 2moro by settlng a stupid SEA exam.

2. hopefulyl passed all subjects without OTP.

3. Going to conduct more sell study and plan for a psossible future in new zealand

so that's the updates just to save myself trouble of writing long essay. I was previously visiting New Zealand for my 3rd time and feel that i shoud go there again someday. Also make a trip to Tokyo.

plsn to sit for JLPT 3 this year and continue nihon go studies, work a better demoreel and concept. end of this update until I can type more, just to lazy to do that now