Monday, January 31, 2011

finally

11 24 pm, I'm at home nicely gathering anything left to pack, my clothes, toilet stuff, throwing out rubbish later at night, my laptop, most of all saying goodbye to any friends, seniors, relatives and close friends here.

in 2008 I applied to study at the one academy, I thought maybe I complete my studies there I would be ready to work, again I was wrong, I am so not ready for anything, so I decided to further to lifeway college, to find my focus in character animation and this time I have to prove I'm learning and ready. I would have gone to the one academy years ago and thought I would not need to study overseas I was wrong again, and most of all I thought I could train while working, I was even more wrong.

goodness those times I relly prove myself wrong but didn't realise that, my awareness started when I turn 25, so while I'm below 30, I will study for 1 last time. mom wanted to me to earlier but I decided it's not time yet, I believe this is the right time, choose the right time to go.

2010 from 2008 pass by so fast and now I feel that maybe after I arrive at auckland and start my study life there, maybe that 1 year will pass quickly and maybe I work there too will passs quickly. So why does this 26 year old guy won't start work yet? when he should? why does he still want to continue study even after completing his digital animation course at the one academy? why the hell does he still goddamn burden his mother, older sister and make life sometimes so hard?

so my answer is, because I know who I am, where I have been, I'm quite slow learner, but honest, I cannot understand whether I'm good at certain things, and I'm always thinking to myself that enough is not enough, that learning got no limits. that I maybe pay the price now, so in the future I know it's something I never regret, randy supported me even if i envy him. Jonathan prefers free education but free comes with a price that we must be wiling to pay, Sellwyn thinks abt money over job but what about happiness? that doesn't matter? ultraman is worried abt a job, but why worry abt jobs when you can pick that time to learn more abt yourself and discover your weakness and absorb watever knowledge you still can? and build it?

finally wai kwan is worried abt her work and problems, we all have to make decisions someday and sometimes we are worried abt what others think, sometimes it's jsut up to you and not up to the world to decide and judge you, we need to believe in ourselves, and sometimes you feel a certain direction to take in life which happens to us often it's like 6 sense, most ppl felt it, I get that random.

I feel bad at getting my mom to pay so much money this time for my last studies and plane ticket, and che to look after me there financially when all that money could be put to better use for their own future, I always wonder why I put them like this sometimes, so I'm paying a price now, and my punishment for this is that, I have no source for entertaiment there, I must live long enough there to survive and I got to plan life ahead, one of them is not to give up.

2moro's flying day and I'm leaving to study overseas for 1st time, I just to be able to learn something be be responsible.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Storyboarding


alright, it's 1 24 am now, and I'm still awake, that's because I sleep early again sigh.

meeting with my junior 2moro for yumcha, saying a last goodbye to anyone else that is here, now to upload the 2nd storyboard title for now is called "Ninja Scroll", previously Shinobi Story, yah typical rite? in fact the story itself is already typical but with simple objective, I dun want anything more complex XP

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alright, anyone can complain it's that long ass storyboard because got 8 storyboard panels, but it just a rough storyboard to get the visual idea out, things will change when I create that world in CG meaning that there are some things I must change or some stuff I might add in to get the look to feel right, while planning for that, I will gather any kind of refference to build this story in CG together with production artwork to cover the whole process.

got all my refference for animation ready. Side projects I am doign now is just simple sketches, some paintings and animation practise, after all I'm specializing in CG Character Animation, just not sure who will hire in future and wat sort of projects I will involve in

other updates, after packig and landing at auckland, won't be online for awhile, wil be celebrating CNY 2011 with my junior Isaac and my relatives, maybe after that I will upload the 3rd storyboard, release some production art but finalize maybe not

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

animation practise



3 50 pm, now my last few day in KL before I fly off to new zealand, some of my classmates and seniors are further studies overseas and some are excited to start work, while i'm still waitingto go, I make us of my time do some animation practise, it's some piece of work I tot about when I was looking through online animation forum sponsor by animation mentor, so I will apply some of them in my personal exercise.

i'm practising in weight and balance, time and spacing. the sketch below is my planning stage on how it can look like.




below is the blocking I did for the animation, along is norman rig for the practise, this is just my blocking stage so there still got time for refinements





pretty soon I going tp upload 2 more storyboards after making refinements the storyline, for now, just keep trying and learning. this saturday will yumcha with 1 one of my juniors, maybe only potential future partner lol

Monday, January 24, 2011

my next journey

4 am in the morning, just wake up, I'm going to fly off on 1st of Febuary, on thai airways to Bangkok 1st, then onwards to Auckland, my 1st flight on my own and 1st time travelling on my own, about damn time oso!

my storyboards are completed, with some small revising work left to do. going to be packing soon so I hope my flight goes properly if not well.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

feng zhu's sharing




it's 10 37 am in the morning here and I just messing arnd again doing nothing XD. okei not really nothing but just read some stuff from feng zhu, wish he is teaching in m'sia instead of singapore.

I saw he's videos about photoshop and wacom basics sharing, he explains about workflow and customizing brush settings and system specs to your feel, not often you hear about this. So I decided to give it a go later to recustomize my own brush settings, color pallete and my work layout.

this is he's sharing video

photoshop and wacom basics part 1





photoshop and wacom basics part 2





I knew abt customizing my own color pallete right after I start texturing my characters in 3D, just that I never apply often, but now I decided to customize it more.

anyway, I'm posting up my storyboard ideas for my final at lifeway college, it's early preparation, whether the idea get accepted or not(i'm damn sure nothing will rejected) I still have a folio for myself, haha!oi my high school friends from law, eat shit man!




This is the storyboard for the legend of Rikimaru, detailed version








the sketches are rough out therefore makes it easy for editing later, in case there are parts I'm not happy with yet I can still refine the storyboard further without loosing the structure of each act. For now that's 1 storyboard to share, I will have 2 more storyboards to post up soon

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

something interesting


environment cg for Under Siege


Character CG for Undersiege



character cg for undersiege, this would be the main character


7 02 am, some new updates ; - reformatted me laptop and reinstalled basic software to get things up and running, will add more soon. one of my seniors seems to recovering pretty well, better than me I think, I had to do things the bloody hard way 9 months after all that I fell the attachment is dead, I feel that probably 1 year later, I will forget everything and I probably won't remember anything after whihc is good for me, I wish to find my next opportunity in life oso, for now, polishing my learning ability and further training is important, if I ever return to m'sia, I can execute some basic plans.

for now I got something to share, spotted it online in cgtalk, a simple short animation with a simgple but good render output, maybe I can refference it as a a style for my final. so this is the biref Axis Animation has completed a beautiful trailer for Under Siege, a new real-time strategy game from Seed Studios, which will be available exclusively on PlayStation Network.


Under Siege from axisanimation on Vimeo.


last but not least, I wish to say that to anyone who won't be in selangor, I will still communicate with you al in your blog yes, not facebook because it really distracting me when I did work. hopefulyl we get to meet when I return to m'sia.





Monday, January 10, 2011

age of innovation

4 31 am and i'm typing stuff now because 1. I'm bored 2. I just finished editing my other storyboard for my final, jsut too lazy to do other works.

so just going to type out updates, recent events lately last year have brough me to think of certain things that will happen in near human future and will continue to change in human future for awhile. one of them I can think of is this term, "Innovation", "Logic", "Education"m "Awareness" and "Learning Attitude".

past years events I felt was some small trigger that release to future events and probably will continue, I sensed it happening but now I can understand what is going to happen can start with this.

1. Social Media : Social Network site eg; facebook, blogging, twitter, msnger and skype, these most known social networking site have most common use they now evolve and changed the way we think and is here to stay for awhile, they chnage the future of communication and sharing information

2. Communication Devices : the iphone and ipad, they may seem like instant cool gadgets that make you feel like it's the breaking of technology but in truth, I feel that it's just another pda device that is like your travelling organizer and doesn't show much of use, if you're young and rich or are classy watever. but it's the only selling devise here in m'sian market and too many ppl have bought it, it's like cellphone trend dies out.

3. computer operating system : Windows 7 Mac OS ; silent for awhile but windows 7 is a improved version of windows vista eats less ram and gives your memory a break so that can run smoothly.

4. Education : in my own country has been showing relly lame results.

5. CG Art and arts education : this wan might be typical I get to the point, covers education in other countries and my country, malaysia has really small market for this area, but we are stil learning, after spending nearly 11 years in this art field I known one thing, malaysia is really new to this, she is not that open yet, she needs to be inspired and innovative ppl to push her, next time, we will be doing the pushing!

my juniors in their foundation are really lacking alot of art fundamentals even can't speak the language, now I realise how sad my lecturer feels, I felt that some of them have not left the academic mindset yet and are still caught on 3 main things in life, money, status and name. art fielders recognize only few things, art capabilities, art foundation, learning attitude, and pay your dues. So far some of them have shown the opposite attitude, got a feeling they need more than just a kick to learn, in fact I will say time for us seniors to raise the bar for them.

also I got stuff to share based on recent events during last year christmas, a walt disney live action feature film about tron legacy, news is that digital domain did alot of special effects work on the film, tot I would share some foreign innovation.

the story on tron legacy, I have not watch it yet, hell I can watch it anytime


4 31 am and i'm typing stuff now because 1. I'm bored 2. I just finished editing my other storyboard for my final, jsut too lazy to do other works.

so just going to type out updates, recent events lately last year have brough me to think of certain things that will happen in near human future and will continue to change in human future for awhile. one of them I can think of is this term, "Innovation", "Logic", "Education"m "Awareness" and "Learning Attitude".

past years events I felt was some small trigger that release to future events and probably will continue, I sensed it happening but now I can understand what is going to happen can start with this.

1. Social Media : Social Network site eg; facebook, blogging, twitter, msnger and skype, these most known social networking site have most common use they now evolve and changed the way we think and is here to stay for awhile, they chnage the future of communication and sharing information

2. Communication Devices : the iphone and ipad, they may seem like instant cool gadgets that make you feel like it's the breaking of technology but in truth, I feel that it's just another pda device that is like your travelling organizer and doesn't show much of use, if you're young and rich or are classy watever. but it's the only selling devise here in m'sian market and too many ppl have bought it, it's like cellphone trend dies out.

3. computer operating system : Windows 7 Mac OS ; silent for awhile but windows 7 is a improved version of windows vista eats less ram and gives your memory a break so that can run smoothly.

4. Education : in my own country has been showing relly lame results.

5. CG Art and arts education : this wan might be typical I get to the point, covers education in other countries and my country, malaysia has really small market for this area, but we are stil learning, after spending nearly 11 years in this art field I known one thing, malaysia is really new to this, she is not that open yet, she needs to be inspired and innovative ppl to push her, next time, we will be doing the pushing!

my juniors in their foundation are really lacking alot of art fundamentals even can't speak the language, now I realise how sad my lecturer feels, I felt that some of them have not left the academic mindset yet and are still caught on 3 main things in life, money, status and name. art fielders recognize only few things, art capabilities, art foundation, learning attitude, and pay your dues. So far some of them have shown the opposite attitude, got a feeling they need more than just a kick to learn, in fact I will say time for us seniors to raise the bar for them.

also I got stuff to share based on recent events during last year christmas, a walt disney live action feature film about tron legacy, news is that digital domain did alot of special effects work on the film, tot I would share some foreign innovation.

the story on tron legacy, I have not watch it yet, hell I can watch it anytime




the behind the scene of tron legacy



more behind the scenes



that's the only sharing I have for now, in the future I will post up my short animation storyboard ideas and concept art. other than that , it's rellu going to be another year



Monday, January 3, 2011

it's time

it 4 09 am in the morning, I can't sleep, and I jsut came across somethin that was bothering me like hell., in fact I felt that I was goign through that hell moment ago, same feeling like 2008, bunch of failure moments, just wonder, is there ever a reason for this kind of failure moments?

last year in august I faced one of my moments of rejections in life, I had to get out of it the hard way, had to find ways to deal with it and damn hell I just got the same feeling again and I have no idea why, so here's how I decided on some things, I need to leave m'sia for a moment, and earn something for myself overseas, sometimes I think being here too long will make me I dunno stay the same.

before I leave m'sia I have to take care of unfinished bussiness and meet up with every person who still matters to me, I feel for my friends and seniors who have just gone through a hell moment and are trying to get through it better situation than I am and I hope we all get through our hell moments, probably listening to you and talking to you all feels much better, I dunt want to have to deal with this alone like last year, it totally sucked and almost drove me nuts.

so once again I wil just make it like this, to everyone who still matters to me and value our friendship and our bonds, lets you and I meet up again just once more, we'll talk and we will think about the future and try and embrace some more brighter, talk about our goals and rise to meet them. I really think that every person shud not wait for something to happen, but make it happen, rise to meet it, I failed in my studies before, my job, my life, rejected by the persons who I wanted as a partner, pushed away by friends who I actually became closer with in the end I know who my friends really are.

in the end I just have to say this, I want a future too, I want that life of my own, you and I have every right to make it happen, I accept failure because I tried but I'm never giving up, I would like to make things happen, i would want a future job as a CG artist because I'm inspired by life's teachings, I would want a partner who can understand me as I understand her, accept me for who I am not what I possess or own, friends that will remember our bonds and value our friendship and never give up on each other most of all, I don't want to give up, I wanna live my life to the fullest because it's just too short and not worth regretting.

also I wanna thank a few people who have gave me a new shed of light even if we may not be so close as friends but, your philosophy and pitfall moments have really told me that it's really worth getting up and trying again no matter what it takes.